Jonathan C .
Moving Above and Beyond
There was a time when I firmly and truly believed that I really needed cigarettes. Guess what? Its been two days as of today (December 18) that Ive stopped!
Isnt it funny how we believe in an objectlike a cigarettethinking at the time it will be beneficial in the long run? Even just saying "long run" while speaking about cigarettes makes me chuckle. You try running a marathon while youve got a lungful or mouthful of nastiness! I stopped running from myself a long time ago. Im here to face the music. Besides, Im well aware of what Im actually running from. I knew way before I picked up this damn habit.
I start questioning my own sense of being, how I thought this habit could assist me on my journey. Little comfort it did. It stank, just like my attitude. Dont get me wrong, I do think that the cigarette has served a purpose but like all things, the novelty wears off. Right? It aint cool anymore! You come to your senses and you realize that what youve absorbed into your soul actually has placed poison on your own Spirit.
Whether you choose to smoke or drink is your choice alone. Life or death, which do you choose? My choice is to get busy living just for today and to finally rid myself of the morbid thought of dying. I made my choices and theyll continue to change because I want to be real. What do you think they did generations ago for pain? Song and Dance comes to mind! Nothin like a good sweat to elevate the pain, and wash away that sorrow, starting fresh for the generations of tomorrow.
Maintaining a sense of balance works for me: to walk the walk and talk the talk the best that I know how. Its great when you suddenly realize that youve always had the power to change your life in anything you strive to do. Today I choose to just be. Two-Spirited Peace Warrior. Yeah, thats me!
Believing in myself was a process of understanding that I’m bigger than this monster that resides inside me.
Reducing the amount I smoke is a more feasible a starting point for me than quitting altogether.
Leigh quit smoking when she had the stroke, so I know she can do it. When the cost was too high, she quit.
I started smoking socially because I had a lot of leftover social anxiety from years of denying the fact that I was gay.
Now being healthy is all about breath. I've been practicing yoga for many years now and it really makes a difference in my life.
For First Nations people, tobacco is sacred and shouldn't be abused by us.
Its great when you suddenly realize that youve always had the power to change your life in anything you strive to do.
Because I had reached a point of desperation in which the pain out weighed the gratifications, I was able to make some life changing decisions that have molded who I am todayclean, sober and smoke-free.
Smoking isn't as cool as it used to be. It's kind of dirty and anti-social.
Smoking is so taboo now. It seems like a strange time to be picking up smoking again, almost surreal, like it's not me. I feel so disappointed in myself. It felt like I was a little kid again, keeping a nasty secret.